Expectation is the root of all heartache

We drifted apart eventually everyone does, I guess. But, I still can't get over how we drifted apart, how you let this happen. More than that, how you just let me go, pushed me away, blocked me out when I did nothing. I did nothing to you. Actually no that's a lie. I did everything for you. I was always there for you whether you need me or not. I did so much for you. I was the person you were closest to, I was your best friend.You told me that repeatedly But I obviously wasn't much to you, since you just cut me off. How could you do that?..How could you pick her over me? I understand she's your girlfriend & you're gonna spend more time with her. And I'm fine with that. But, that doesn't mean you have to block me out completely, as if I don't even exist. That hurt. It hurt me so much.. More than I'm even willing to admit. Because, you were my best friend, too. I thought we'd always be close. But apparently, I was wrong. things change. Sometimes I just wish we could go back. 

Life needs a little spice

The more things change, the more they stay the same. I'm not sure who the first person was who said that. Probably Shakespeare. Or maybe Sting. But at the moment, it's the sentence that best explains my tragic flaw, my inability to change. I don't think I'm alone in this. The more I get to know other people, the more I realize it's kind of everyone's flaw. Staying exactly the same for as long as possible, standing perfectly still... It feels safer somehow. And if you are suffering, at least the pain is familiar. Because if you took that leap of faith, went outside the box, did something unexpected... Who knows what other pain might be out there, waiting for you. Chances are it could be even worse. So you maintain the status quo. Choose the road already traveled and it doesn't seem that bad. Not as far as flaws go. You're not a drug addict. You're not killing anyone... Except maybe yourself a little. When we finally do change, I don't think it happens like an earthquake or an explosion, where all of a sudden we're like this different person. I think it's smaller than that. The kind of thing most people wouldn't even notice unless they looked at us really close. Which, thank God, they never do. But you notice it. Inside you that change feels like a world of difference. And you hope this is it. This is the person you get to be forever... that you'll never have to change again.

When.....

when girls are quiet, millions of thoughts are running through their minds. when girls are not arguing, they are thinking deeply. when girls look staringly at you, they are wondering how long you will be around. when girls answer "i'm fine" after a few seconds, they are not fine. when girls are silent and looking at you different, they are wondering whether you are lying or not. when girls lay their head on your chest, they are wishing for you to be theirs forever. when girls say "i love you," they mean it. when girls don't say "i love you back," they don't mean they don't love you, it means they don't know if they should. and when girls say "i miss you..." no one in the world could ever miss you more.

A Note

Dear [[Future]] girlfriend,

Please take care of him. He's shy to start with. He smells amazing. He will make you insanely happy. He'll text you until three in the morning. Never underestimate him. He's athletic. He's smart. He's loyal. Yes, he will ditch you once in a while for the boys, but those late night calls make up for it. You know those butterflies you're feeling now? Yeah, those don't ever go away. Most importantly, love him. Take what he gives you;; treasure your time with him, because you never know when it will end. and when it does, cherish the memories just like I do now, and will forever.

With love, [[Past]] girlfriend.

Screw You!

This is for all the jerks that have been telling a girl words that are to die for. You tell her, "You’d change for her. ” And you go behind her back, and freaking go against your word. You tell her, "You're the only one I talk to baby ” But in reality, you're texting a million other skanks, and telling them the same damn thing. You bring her out one day, hold her hand, give her a peck on the lips, hold her bag, and hold her by the waist. You show your friends your with her, but you stop texting / calling her after that day. You call her " my girl ” Which just makes her feel so good, when you got 2 or 3 other girls on the side too. This is for all the jerks, who’ve lied to women’s face, who’ve stopped talking to a women after a day, who’ve just canceled a women outta their lives. Seriously? Grow up. We’ve been telling you jerk how much we hate getting hurt, and we freaking expect so much from you guys. We expect you guys to change, but do you? Negative. It’s sad because it spoils all the other guys who’d want a chance with these girls. They’d have to work harder, because the girl’s afraid she’d get played again. Two words for guys like this: Screw You

B R O K E N

This is for the broken hearted. I know how you feel. Empty, betrayed, and no happiness whatsoever. You don't want to laugh, because you know it's not going to help, but you don't want to cry, because it will just make you feel worse. You feel like your heart is falling apart, but not only that, but you know soon your life is going to feel like it's falling apart too. You don't think it will ever end, and no matter what this person has done to you, it feels impossible to stop loving them. And everyone wonders why if they have hurt you so much, then why do you still love them. That's the confusing part, you don't know why, you just do, and the people who hurt you the most, and normally the ones you love the most. And then, after a few weeks, you finally feel a sense of relief, like you're getting happy again, but you know inside that you're just going into denial. And after a few more weeks, you're back to where you were an empty soul and teary eyes. You thought you got over them, but really, you just stopped showing it. And you can't help but to show it again. It leaves deep scars on your heart that are there forever. And no one understands how you feel, and how deep you are hurt, no matter who they are, because it hasn't happened to them And even if it has, every broken heart is different. They don't know the true pain you feel and carry each and everyday now, so you learn that basically you are alone with all this. And the feeling starts to overwhelm you, and suddenly you just break down, right there, because you know you've had enough, the tears just instantly start flowing, and you're to the point where you don't care who see's. Because you've spent so many nights lying awake in bed, and so many days being haunted by the scars and fear of rejection. And in the midst of all these tears, you know that its not helping any, and it's not going to bring them back, if you ever even had them in the first place. After about a million tears have been cried, you finally pull yourself back together and keep going. Your throat starts to clench and your eyes burn with the tears you are trying to hold back. Everyone says, "It will be okay…” But you know it won't. And that’s the truth, it won’t. And you look back on all of the hurt you had from this, and you realize that people are horrible. You're still hurt, but you've learned to hide it so that everyone thinks you are okay. So now every time you see this person, you know you still love them, and you feel a slight tingle in your heart yearning for them to love you, screaming out, but for some reason they don't hear it. And then you sit back and wonder how one person could have caused all of this... 
What exactly is a broken heart? A broken heart is forcing yourself to hang up the phone after you have dialed the first three digits to his phone number. A broken heart is the cold, chattering feeling you receive when you hear his name. A broken heart is when you're crying yourself to sleep every night and yet crying more and more each morning. A broken heart is glancing at the pictures of the two of you, and then quickly turning your attention to something else to avoid your tears. A broken heart is screaming and begging for a second chance inside, but not being able to say it out loud. A broken heart is the emptiness and heart wrenching feeling you encounter when you see him with other girls. A broken heart is knowing that no matter what you do or say to yourself, you cant fool your heart into believing that you will in fact be "okay." A broken heart is listening to that one song that makes you break down, on repeat. A broken heart is when you go from smiling uncontrollably every time you saw him to quiet tears every time someone mentions his name. A broken heart is when you try to avoid him but end up going out of your way just to get a glimpse of him. A broken heart is when you know you've been hurt, but have no idea how to fix it. A broken heart is when you finally realize that he's everything you need and at the same time realize he's the one thing you can never have. *i remember when i related to that.

Ladies please

A woman should have one old love she can imagine going back to, and one who reminds her how far she has come. A woman should have a past juicy enough that she's looking forward to retelling in her old age. A woman should have one friend who always makes her laugh, and one who lets her cry. A woman should have a feeling of control over her destiny. Every woman should know how to fall in love without losing herself. Every woman should know how to quit a job, break up with a lover, and confront a friend without ruining the friendship. Every woman should know when to try harder and when to walk away. Every woman should know how to live alone, even if she doesn't like it. And every woman should know who she can trust, who she can't, and why she shoudn't take it personally.