Thursday, March 31, 2011

A Note

Dear [[Future]] girlfriend,

Please take care of him. He's shy to start with. He smells amazing. He will make you insanely happy. He'll text you until three in the morning. Never underestimate him. He's athletic. He's smart. He's loyal. Yes, he will ditch you once in a while for the boys, but those late night calls make up for it. You know those butterflies you're feeling now? Yeah, those don't ever go away. Most importantly, love him. Take what he gives you;; treasure your time with him, because you never know when it will end. and when it does, cherish the memories just like I do now, and will forever.

With love, [[Past]] girlfriend.

Monday, March 21, 2011

Screw You!

This is for all the jerks that have been telling a girl words that are to die for. You tell her, "You’d change for her. ” And you go behind her back, and freaking go against your word. You tell her, "You're the only one I talk to baby ” But in reality, you're texting a million other skanks, and telling them the same damn thing. You bring her out one day, hold her hand, give her a peck on the lips, hold her bag, and hold her by the waist. You show your friends your with her, but you stop texting / calling her after that day. You call her " my girl ” Which just makes her feel so good, when you got 2 or 3 other girls on the side too. This is for all the jerks, who’ve lied to women’s face, who’ve stopped talking to a women after a day, who’ve just canceled a women outta their lives. Seriously? Grow up. We’ve been telling you jerk how much we hate getting hurt, and we freaking expect so much from you guys. We expect you guys to change, but do you? Negative. It’s sad because it spoils all the other guys who’d want a chance with these girls. They’d have to work harder, because the girl’s afraid she’d get played again. Two words for guys like this: Screw You


This is for the broken hearted. I know how you feel. Empty, betrayed, and no happiness whatsoever. You don't want to laugh, because you know it's not going to help, but you don't want to cry, because it will just make you feel worse. You feel like your heart is falling apart, but not only that, but you know soon your life is going to feel like it's falling apart too. You don't think it will ever end, and no matter what this person has done to you, it feels impossible to stop loving them. And everyone wonders why if they have hurt you so much, then why do you still love them. That's the confusing part, you don't know why, you just do, and the people who hurt you the most, and normally the ones you love the most. And then, after a few weeks, you finally feel a sense of relief, like you're getting happy again, but you know inside that you're just going into denial. And after a few more weeks, you're back to where you were an empty soul and teary eyes. You thought you got over them, but really, you just stopped showing it. And you can't help but to show it again. It leaves deep scars on your heart that are there forever. And no one understands how you feel, and how deep you are hurt, no matter who they are, because it hasn't happened to them And even if it has, every broken heart is different. They don't know the true pain you feel and carry each and everyday now, so you learn that basically you are alone with all this. And the feeling starts to overwhelm you, and suddenly you just break down, right there, because you know you've had enough, the tears just instantly start flowing, and you're to the point where you don't care who see's. Because you've spent so many nights lying awake in bed, and so many days being haunted by the scars and fear of rejection. And in the midst of all these tears, you know that its not helping any, and it's not going to bring them back, if you ever even had them in the first place. After about a million tears have been cried, you finally pull yourself back together and keep going. Your throat starts to clench and your eyes burn with the tears you are trying to hold back. Everyone says, "It will be okay…” But you know it won't. And that’s the truth, it won’t. And you look back on all of the hurt you had from this, and you realize that people are horrible. You're still hurt, but you've learned to hide it so that everyone thinks you are okay. So now every time you see this person, you know you still love them, and you feel a slight tingle in your heart yearning for them to love you, screaming out, but for some reason they don't hear it. And then you sit back and wonder how one person could have caused all of this... 
What exactly is a broken heart? A broken heart is forcing yourself to hang up the phone after you have dialed the first three digits to his phone number. A broken heart is the cold, chattering feeling you receive when you hear his name. A broken heart is when you're crying yourself to sleep every night and yet crying more and more each morning. A broken heart is glancing at the pictures of the two of you, and then quickly turning your attention to something else to avoid your tears. A broken heart is screaming and begging for a second chance inside, but not being able to say it out loud. A broken heart is the emptiness and heart wrenching feeling you encounter when you see him with other girls. A broken heart is knowing that no matter what you do or say to yourself, you cant fool your heart into believing that you will in fact be "okay." A broken heart is listening to that one song that makes you break down, on repeat. A broken heart is when you go from smiling uncontrollably every time you saw him to quiet tears every time someone mentions his name. A broken heart is when you try to avoid him but end up going out of your way just to get a glimpse of him. A broken heart is when you know you've been hurt, but have no idea how to fix it. A broken heart is when you finally realize that he's everything you need and at the same time realize he's the one thing you can never have. *i remember when i related to that.

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Ladies please

A woman should have one old love she can imagine going back to, and one who reminds her how far she has come. A woman should have a past juicy enough that she's looking forward to retelling in her old age. A woman should have one friend who always makes her laugh, and one who lets her cry. A woman should have a feeling of control over her destiny. Every woman should know how to fall in love without losing herself. Every woman should know how to quit a job, break up with a lover, and confront a friend without ruining the friendship. Every woman should know when to try harder and when to walk away. Every woman should know how to live alone, even if she doesn't like it. And every woman should know who she can trust, who she can't, and why she shoudn't take it personally.